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Alright so, it’s been a while since I wrote. And I’m not here with good news.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’m back to my old habits. No workout. No yoga. No BuJo. Nothing. Just… null.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’m angry while I’m writing this. Actually, I’m furious. At myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I Became Everything I Said I Wouldn’t<\/h2>\n\n\n\n

My hands and legs are lean, my tummy and chest are huge. My body looks like shit. And the certifications? Still don’t have them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I cracked the interview. They said I did well. But now they need the certs. The actual tech certs. Because apparently talent and experience don’t matter. Motherfuckers. No importance for actual skill, just paperwork.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And I couldn’t even get myself to study for one. Just one cert. Can’t focus. Can’t push through.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

What the hell is wrong with me? Why can’t I stick to anything? I took it gradually, right? I did everything the “right way.” So why am I here again?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Doomscrolling all day. Not reading. Not moving. Just existing as a lazy lump on the couch. This isn’t me. This isn’t who I want to be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The Anger That Comes With Falling<\/h2>\n\n\n\n

I hate myself today. I really do.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I hate that I let the yoga sessions stop. I hate that the BuJo that was clearing my mind is now sitting somewhere collecting dust. I hate that I can see the person I want to become but can’t seem to stay on the path long enough to get there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And the worst part? I know better. I’ve done better. I’ve felt what it’s like to show up at 6 AM and win the day before it even starts. I’ve felt the clarity of following through. And somehow, I still ended up here.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’m still in my PO role. Maybe I’ll just focus on getting into leadership from here. Klaus is on leave till May anyway, so I can breathe a little. Maybe that’s okay for now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But it doesn’t feel okay. It feels like settling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But Here’s What I Know<\/h2>\n\n\n\n

I’m restarting. Again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tomorrow, I’m giving this another shot. And if I fall again? I’ll restart again. And again. And however many times it takes until these habits actually stick.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I need to become better. A better man. A smarter man. Responsible. Disciplined. The kind of person who doesn’t just talk about change but becomes it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’m not giving up on that version of me. Even when I hate where I am right now, I’m not giving up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tomorrow I try again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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